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ella's avatar

i was there when you lied last time! these are so devastatingly poetic that it’s almost unbelievable that these are journal entries. i’m so glad you decided to share this part of your soul.

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Elle's avatar

thank u so much ily <3

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ira's avatar

this is so incredible ur so incredible

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Elle's avatar

<3 <3

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emma's avatar

to say i love this would be a gross understatement

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Elle's avatar

i love u

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Luisa's avatar

so proud of you for posting this. you're a star!!

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Elle's avatar

thank u for reading in advance 🤍

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melanie ♡'s avatar

i'm so sorry, elle. i'm sorry your girlhood was robbed of you. i'm so sorry you had to experience that, that you're still experiencing it. i cannot begin to imagine how it must feel but i'm so proud of you for acknowledging it and writing about it and sharing it even when it doesn't feel real. the passion and pain behind your essay in your 28th postcard is so alive in this journal entry. thank you for being vulnerable with us <3

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Milena's avatar

if i could write as beautifully as you do i might be able to express how much these mean to me.

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leah beth's avatar

these are so so beautiful so proud of you 🤍🤍

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mikareadsomebooks's avatar

Thank you so much for sharing a piece of your soul. Elle, you are Loved and deserved Kindness. 🫀

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midnight coffee trips's avatar

i think certain people are so evil that they do horrible unthinkable things to beautiful people, so when you try to use logic to figure out why they would do something like that to you, you can’t. Because it’ll never make sense, their reason will never make sense even if you ask them.

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T. R. Enchant's avatar

27, to me, is all about taking back my girlhood. I'm reading feminist tween fiction like a fiend, shoring up strength for my younger self, because god dammit I will give my girl the support she never had then.

your words are gorgeous, thank you for sharing

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eylul's avatar

thank you for sharing these parts of your life, of yourself. these are huge to share. there are many memories that we sometimes have to get vulnerable and poetic with in order to tell them in the way we need to. the way you write is so poetically braided with your emotions and it felt so real. it is very brave to write in this way–very nice work and thanks again for sharing with the world.

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Caroline's avatar

I've never read something that describes my anticipatory grief so well. I thought I was alone in that regard!

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Sol's avatar

These are beautifully written — the one about anticipatory grief especially resonated with me ❤️‍🩹 watching someone you love slowly slip away is always gut-wrenching

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caitlin.'s avatar

these are written beautifully. thank you for sharing your thoughts. thank you for putting into words how i too feel about grief. how strange of a feeling it is. how you want to be able to cry and purge out those feelings in one go but then you just can’t.

again these are so beautifully written. thank you.

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Dia Lupo's avatar

Proud of you for this one babe, achingly beautiful

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Caroline Beuley's avatar

So so gorgeous and heart wrenching Elle! I’m so glad you shared ❤️

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